I have a problem

I rather drown my sorrow in alcohol
And throw a party
Than admit that I'm not okay
But I just feel like running away
Being forgotten by the world
Because inside myself I curl

I curl up and hide away
I hide form my pain of every day
Drown my sorrow
Like there is no tomorrow

Please say you won't come look for me
Please say you'll set my free
Free from my dreams
Free for the queens

The queens of misery
That make sure that I can not see
See the pain that they cause me
Cause me in my restless dream

The note is right it seem
Because no one hears my screams
Screams of what I feel is right
This note is a dream of suicide 

A little story

A little story for a day
There is regular in it own way
It takes place in a school
At morning filled with fuel

The protagonist steps off the bus
Music in his ears time to focus
Class room seem normal
A room full of civil

People who try to have fun
and get by till the day is done

A call message from the head
We're under attack it said
But how can a school be a war
It not this society's core

Masked men with guns break in
A voice yells begin
That's in the protagonist head it heard
And now his vision is blurred

The are bound and put to the floor
The safety is no more
An hour goes by
Lucky no one had to die

The protagonist go an idea
He say to the mask "come here"
I need to take a piss
But with no hands I'll miss

They go to the bath room
Now there's only one guard in the classroom
The protagonist's hands are unbound
And he's throw the ground

In one of the stalls
But he notices no guards through out the halls

The guard has his back turned to the stall
The protagonist opens the door and kick the guard to the wall
The protagonist take the guards knife
Now it's time to slice and dice

The protagonist put on the clothing of the guard
Now the action is going to start
Going to the classroom
He'll know only doom

Cause the voices tell him to kill
Just kill, kill for you're own thrill
He stands in the doorway
No one notices that this is not okay

The guard is an easy target
Pow! shot! Death's the only exit

He cut the rope of he classmates
But death awaits
A guard in an other room
Rush towards his doom

Kick the gun out of the protagonist's hands
Mano a mano they stands
But the protagonist has death hands granted
And now his hands is tainted

He throws the mask and walk to the door
His love calls to him
"Be careful, don't get yourself slain"
"Are you insane, this is all just a game"

How far?

How far am I gone
Why ain't it done
This bleeding misery
This feeling of not being free

Free for distress
Trying to repress
These feelings inside me
Come with and you'll see

See a world of blood and gore
See a world you haven't seen before
You dumb motherfucker don't you know
I am the easiest person to let go

You won't need me
You won't see me
You can't miss me when I'm gone
You can only hear my fucking song

The song you can't let gone
The song you didn't know
Was the feeling of me inside of you
You're stuck ind and cage and the no one to save you

Believe it real inside of me
See the soul of a dying breed
Breath me out and go away
Bitch you got nothing to say

So how far gone am I?
Let just say
Don't bother reach me
I'm to far to even try  

Goodbye

Even though I was the one to say goodbye
It doesn't mean I'm not the one to cry
Seeing your face
Seeing your Grace
Need a place to run away

Won't you take me out of my head
Because inside myself I feel dead
I'm locked away
In hope of a better day
No voice to speak or say

Might be that I'm lost forever
Running through the never
Goodbye
With the bloody tear in your eye
I won't stay

Goodbye
You needy bitch
Goodbye
I'll never be bewitched 

Get your fact straight

Out of my phone
Out of my computer
Leave me alone
Deleted, taking town in a new blazer

The night are already winter cold
I hope I'm drunk, so I forget the week to come
I don't want any one to hold
Coming and going like a phantom

Give me a place
Just a fuck for tonight
Not a fucking chase
I'm no knight

I don't want your love
Don't care about the hatred
I know it's tough
But this is the way it ended

Look I'm a bastard
A drunk idiot
The duke of hazard
nothing more than a male slut 

The voice of and innocent bad man

I am not a bad man
Just made the wrong choices
You are than i possibly can
Be, please be my voice
When things are tough
When things a rough

I'll try to be better than now
I'll leave my old habits
I'll leave it somehow
I'll be more than this is
Pull a trigger and dance
And be true to you stands

I'm wrong and I am running
Running from something, I don't know
And you are the one gunning
Gunning me down, in the shadows you show
Don't know if I hate you
Don't know if I should aid you

Help me finding another way
The way out alive
What should I say
Help my voice to cut like a knife
Use it to separate what's real
But you keep running in a wheel  

Home is where the heart is

People tell me to go home
But home is where the heart is
But this is cold as stone
And my heart is gone
I tried to be strong
Fate has a poisoned kiss

Get out of my head
This feeling of guilt
I'm dead
I feel so weak
Nothingness to seek
Nothing to build

Everything to rebuild
Nothing to do it of
Please destroy my guilt
Is was so strong before
I can't be anymore
I need to be sawed off

Sitting here I wasted a day
And memories fade away
But what the fuck could i do