Mind wild (sad and not necessarily true)

A half heart
A half mind

Seem unreal at start
But left me blind

For almost a year
With other girl
Without you here
Without a pretty little pearl

You are a savior
A goddess in my sight

You are the creator
Of love from my inside

My thoughts day and night
no different from each other
Every time I see you there is a little light
I'll say how I feel but why bother?

I know you fell
And ran away
I got nothing to tell
Nothing to say

You fell and ran
I kept falling
I really hope you can
Can you hear me calling?

I tried to bleed you out
But nothing, no nothing was working
But saying how I feel out loud
But it wasn't helping

Now I think I should keep it to myself
Except this poem
There is thing we only should truest in oneself
Because feelings are no totem

I am at the edge of tears right now
A little laugh cause You'll never be mine
And I know you couldn't anyhow
I am just a waste of space and time

Negative and depressing

No no no, my mind just ran wild
I am only realizing

That is the last time I smiled

How feel is necessarily not what going to happen