Blessing or Curse

I don't know it yet
So I'm only the guessing
Don't know if this count as a curse
But it most definitely doesn't feel like a blessing

I can only say
I don't know what's wrong
Melancholia in these moments
I feel so weak when I'm most strong

I feel like my life is a song
The story line of if can't hang
But maybe I'm looking to hard for a sign
Maybe an echo symphony of a song I once sang

But I can't hang
Hang to the feel of falling in love
I wish I could
I wish you'd talk to life to say enough

So here I am in the dark
I know I'm better alone
Here I am with a new heart
And this time it chiseled out of stone

Only hope that this will last
Because of the once from my past